Delivery Day

Soooo this is Jake on Delivery Day ( watching football .. I was actually really grateful there was college games on that friday I felt bad for Jake and didn't want him to be totally bored.. I was completely out of it and couldn't really concentrate on anything)

and this is me... haha ok  I didn't have the air mask on me all day that was right before I found out I would need a C- Section I needed a lil extra oxygen for me and the baby. 
Ok so I'll make this short in the morning I had dilated to a 2 and was 50% effaced which was great things were moving along well. Then the doctor came back a couple hours later I hadn't changed at all so now we had the choice to pack it up and go home or stay so we decided to stay just for a little bit longer and see if anything would change. Well we ended up needing to have the dr come back an hr later instead of 3 because the contractions were getting really bad and i needed a epidural. This whole time I was like ok just let there be some big change if we're meant to have this baby today. So I had dilated to a 3 and was 80% effaced within an hr so we decided to stay! Then the Dr. came back a hrs later I was at a 4 and 90% ..... and then a few hrs later unfortunatly same story and the babies heart beat was going down with my contractions and I was pretty out of it when he was explaining this but something to do with the position of the baby and how narrow my pelvis is and and it was shaped compared to other people I would need a C-section.  Which I was at peace with to be honest I really really didn't want one. and the pic below I'm getting cut open haha which of course wasn't bad there was some awkward feelings like rib tugging and when I was being sewed up I just felt a lot of cramps with that.  

So a big reason I didn't want a C-section is because I hear women have a harder time connecting with their babies at first and I was afraid it would take away from the experience. But I am not a person at ALL that likes to show emotion in public and I always feel awkward about really personal experiences and sharing that with people and I  DO NOT cry. But as soon as they pulled that baby out and I heard her cry I couldn't stop I seriously had to control myself from totally bawling big time. I didn't get to see her for a few mins I actually saw her for the first time in a picture. But heres a little sample of her in the delivery room and it was SOOOO cold in there  I felt so bad.

So I have to say I'm so grateful for Jake and what a wonderful person he is. He has been SO awesome during this whole thing and has helped out so much I know theres alot of guys out there that wouldn't even come close to helping as much as he has. I'm so glad that he was able to give me like a million priesthood blessings to get me through the whole experience. He also is seriously the cutest dad and LOVES holding her and doesn't get frustrated with her when she just wont stop crying .. and he doesnt even get frustrated when she pees on him haha.